for many years i never believed and understood the power of meditations .thinking  it as a mere play of escaping the realities of life.but recently things in life began to change drastically.there were times when i said to myself what the heck lets end it rite here now god.

for i was wrong.way to wrong for my years.i started reading the quran.read books on sufism .had my interest in divine names .it never came easily as with other things in life.i starte feeling alone depressed most of the time.but nowhere to run .

i was the furnace in the rose garden.i began to cry.ran after material things which seem to look mine but never were.saw the poison being inflicted in my pure blood until i became one of them.The Courruptednow after two years its not i have become strong or have been pure soul.i am still struggling.living.but not as i used to struugle before.nor i have become a spriual learned person.but yes this all changed me to the fact i started believing in God.be it a muslim,christain,hindu God remains one .i believe now he does exist.but to big for our imagination to ponder.i am still confused but once this confusion ends that is the day ill be gone for i wwill see God and there will be no meaning to live..i started with first steps remember God.until u become his light.believe his lightness touches you you become his lightness.believe in his power.until u become a pearl and dropped down on earth.be you from any religion remember your majesty your God.winner or loser.pray anyway