For six year of my life I enjoyed living a life with no stress and no worries. I made pretty good money, I was able to do what I wanted when I wanted. My major concern was what to buy next. Then all of the sudden I meet a wonderful women, have a child and start to stress.
What was I going to do, the money I made wasn't good enough to support a new child and spouse. Bills started getting bigger and piling up. My car broke down, her car broke down, visits to the emergency room for complications. One thing after another, it seemed like nothing was going my way and there was nothing I could do to alleviate any of these problems. Then our child was born premature and we faced complications with that and her not being able to work.
Everyday I would sit and think about ways I could make more money, how I could be a better provider and take care of my family. My stress level was going through the roof and my attitude towards my family started getting negative. I was short fused and angery all the time.
One day the mother of my child asked me if I wanted to leave her, how she knew that my life was perfect before I met her, how she complicated my life and said she would understand if I wanted out of our relationship. I didn't know what to say, never did I think this would happen. By me not being able to deal with things I had made by beautiful women think I no longer cared for her or my child.
I told her I would never leave her and then I went on to tell her about all the things I had been worrying about over the past few months and how I felt about not being able to fix them. She cried in my arms for a long time after that and when she was able she told me she didn't care about how much money we had or how things where in our lives. As long as we where a family everything would be ok with her.
This made me realize that my mind set had been all wrong. I loved her with all my heart and by worrying over all these things I was just making things worse. After that I decided to not worry so much. I prioritized all our bills and paid what I could when I could. My life became more manageable and my attitude became less agitated and more carefree agian.
By finally expressing my frustrations and concerns I was able to understand that none of that mattered. My personal life has become better because of it and my work has never been better. If you let stress, worries and life events run your life you will never live your life the way it should. If things are starting to drag you down then you just need to take a step back talk to someone and breath a little. Nothing is more important then your life and your health, so do not let life break you down.