Going home during weekends is rare in my life..meeting my very old school mates is rarest..I have a habit of looking around each and everything on my way from the railway station to home as I see Calicut only once in 10 months or once in a year..Although this habit of mine distracts my Mom's driving,I still love it..I like tell Mom comments like "oh!!this shop was not here when i came home last time","Phew!!why is this road one-way now??"..etc

But during one of those accidental visit to my home,I saw one of my 12th std classmates..She was on the other side of the road waiting for the bus to come..Although she was two days younger to me(I remember her DOB as we were the only two Aquarian),she looked like a woman in her late twenties,she was wearing sari and have covered her head with the Muslim duppatta..Even though I saw her only for seconds I could read a lot from her face..

She was not a close friend of mine..But I used to know about her as some of my friends are close to her..She got married right after the 12th std boards..I used to see her tensed during the pre-boards time,but we all were in tension at that time which never made us think of something like a marriage..Some of my friends had gone for her wedding and in my 1st year of college I heard the news that she had a baby girl..lets hope that she is happy in her life..

But what makes me ponder for the rest of my drive to home was a comparison about the feelings..After 12th std,the one and only feeling or thought that I had been was about IIT and NIT..But at that time she was getting married to guy 10 years elder to her and taking the responsibility of a house..When I was getting tensed about the passing my semester exams,she must be getting tensed about delivering her baby..While I dream about job,she must be struggling to look after her kids..Today when I work and have fun around,I see her in 30-year-old looks,having dark circles which shows her tension and struggles in life..

I was trying to get inside her shoes and think for a while..I almost collapsed..

It is not her mistake..actually it is nobody's mistake..I am having a mixed feelings about it..I don't know whom to blame..<!-- .entry-content -->