My Life

I hope this letter finds you in best of spirits and health. First, allow me to introduce myself. My friends and family call me Bo. My given name is Joseph Edward Tesche. I write to you to tell my story because I feel that what I have to tell is important to millions of people who are suffering or who have suffered like I have in my life and can find no peace and no closure on what they have experienced. Therefore their experience continues to manifest itself in many ways that are harmful to their spirit such as addiction, and I will just say addiction because obsession and compulsion has many faces. They turn to crime, their self-esteem has them settling for less. I have in the forty years that I have been on this place we call Earth, an incredible journey. I will briefly touch on that.

Up until 17 years ago, I had been in and out of every institution that this society has to offer, beginning with mental hospitals at the age of eight, and going onto many juvenile correction facilities, and eventually to state prison for 10 years. I cannot tell you as a child how many times I was molested as a child, how many beatings I took from my stepfather, how lonely and afraid I have felt throughout life. How unloved and worthless I have felt, how I reached a point of complete hopelessness and accepted the role I was given in life and rolled with it. I have watched your show off and on for years and I respect what you do. Before I continue, let me express a point. The only way to gain understanding is through experience. If you do not have the experience, you cannot have understanding therefore you cannot have wisdom. I have watched countless writers write books on how to live a successful life. I admit that some of it is useful but a lot of it lacks the feeling of true experience and conviction. Having a willingness to learn and grow as a spiritual being and learning new ways on how to react to what we feel rather than reacting to all the fear based thought, to open the mind to a thought process of love. To learn to nurture the spirit. God is love and love is God. Giving people positive reinforcement and nurturing a positive sense of self, love, and acceptance for themselves. I cannot say that I have reached a place where I love wholly and completely without expectation or condition or that I have reached a oneness with God but these are the ideas that I have strive towards.

I believe that our society is in deep trouble because there is no unity and we have taken God out of our country. I have a thought, which I call the demoralization of American society. Our population is so oppressed and so exploited that parents no longer have the time to teach their children nor the ability to teach their children about living according to spiritual principles. Somewhere along the line people forgot or never learned how to communicate and express their feeling appropriately. Feelings are meant to come up and out and if they do not they come out sideways. I thank God for his grace and mercy because I have four beautiful children, Logan and Nathaniel.jadeyn and sage. I do my best to teach my children to live by spiritual principles.

One of the biggest lies is that I need something outside of myself to make me complete. Within each of our spirits there is a hole in which only God can fill and when I say God I do not mean God in a religious dogmatic sense. I mean God in the spiritual sense. A God that loves me no matter what , who is compassionate and understanding and allows me to learn from my mistakes, who is there for me all the time. I have not used a drink or a drug in almost 17 years_ I have not robbed or stole and have not intentionally hurt another human being in as long. Since I have been clean I have went through a divorce, the death of my mom, the loss of two children, countless number of friends, and my last son Nathaniel was born with Congenital Heart defects. He is not even five years old and he has already had four open heart surgeries. He has a pacemaker that he received when he was only a week old and this has been the hardest experience of my life. We kept the faith and allowed God to do God’s work and just continued to show up and guess what? Our baby is going to be five in October and he is beautiful_ I do not take credit to have the ability to go through all these things because I do not. God gets all the credit, for everything. Anything that I achieve or become or have, have been blessings from God because I know how I got where I am at today and that is called Divine Intervention. People do not come back from where I have come from. There is so much that my spirit would like to say and express. I will be quiet for the moment. I hope that you will find what I have said  important.