SPIRITUAL LOVE
My spiritual love is freedom, freedom from all control even from self control. A controlled man is a dead man whether we are controlled by others or by our self does not make much difference.
My spiritual love is spontaneity living moment to moment without any pre-fabricated or pre-planed discipline .Because if we know already where we are going, we are dead then life runs in a mechanical way or in a stereo type manner. I think life should be a flow from the known towards the unknown. Because only the unknown liberates and known bounds.
Mind and meditation cannot co-exist there is no question of having both of them. Either you can have mind or you can have meditation because mind is thinking. The mind is your past, all that you have learned, all that you have been conditioned for, all that you have experienced, all that you have thought about. This is your mind. Out of this mind comes a planning for the future, that planning for the future is nothing but a repetition of the past. It comes out of the past; it cannot be anything else may be little modified here and there, decorated here and there, but there is no radical revolution in it. Mind compares everything with loss and profit. It just wants to achieve. It is not ready to lose hence, it cannot love or meditate.
On the other hand, meditation is silence. It has no expression, but is comes with a radical revolution. It may not know what is love? But betterly know how to love, how to sacrifice, and how to care.
While ‘Mind’ is groping in the dark for the door, meditation is seeing there is no question of groping; it (meditation) knows the door. Mind thinks but meditation knows.
This is very fundamental reason why man cannot become meditative (or true lover) or why very few men have dared to become meditative. The meditation is the path on which ‘ambition’ and ‘ambitious’ co-exist each other, the separation is not possible.
Generally or mostly what happens in a marriage two dead persons living in a dead relationship go on quarreling, fighting, nagging each other, trying to dominate, manipulate, exploit, destroy and etc. etc marriage is an ugly thing more or less depending on the person to person. But ‘Spiritual Love’ is tremendously beautiful and I think more dutiful too spiritual love does not want to dominate. It wants to serve. It wants to care. It wants to give happiness. It wants only to give not to achieve anything. In spiritual love ultimately a stage will come, when we feel to be served by serving the others and we feel a ‘spirit’ of satisfaction, which provides the piece of mind’, piece of heart. At that time we approach towards the complete devotion to ‘Spiritual Love’ and at that moment the ‘Spiritual Love’ towards the human being is not just remain Just the spiritual love for human being, but it becomes a meditation towards the supreme power of the world i.e. the god and the aim of all the ‘religions and missions’’ of the world will be fulfilled and they get the right direction where the spiritual love’ coincide with the meditation towards the God.
My meditation is like the ‘spiritual love while generally the meditation, for others, is more like a marriage (pre-planed or pre-fabricated) in which people have expectations from each other. If they meditate towards God, they want something back in response. Which is a clear cut bargaining. Due to this bargaining, they cannot concentrate at their aims, they cannot properly meditate.
Meditation is simply‘courage’ to face what so ever is going to happen, without any rehearsal for it or without any expectation to achieve, without any thinking about profit and loss.
Generally people say god created the world. I think they state in a very wrong way. I say god is the world. God has not created it, because he has never been able to become separate from it. It is not like a painter, that he paints something and then he is free of painting and the painting becomes separate. Painter can die but the painting will live. No, God is not like that god is more like a ‘dancer’. No one can separate the dancer from the dance. He is Natraj (i.e. lord Shiva). The dancer of dancers, the master of the entire dancer. He is dancing in the leaf, in the flower, in the raindrops, in the river and also in my beloved (i.e. the paragon of beauty and duty). All over the world, is his dance (i.e. God is Omni present). He has not created the world, he is the world, the world is his dance and the separation does not exist if the world is not there, he will not be a dancer at all. If the dancer is not there, the world cannot exist. They are not separable.
In my spiritual love, I think my `beloved is not separate from me. In my meditation, ‘we’ are inseparably together. In fact, to say “together” is not right word because we are not two; how can this word be used here. We are one. We are `single entity. `
My beloved friend asks me what kind of meditation I am doing. However, it is very difficult task to express, it in words, but I have just tried unto some extent in these lines.
I also want to clarify my beloved friend that my spiritual love co-exist with your meditation and this is the stage, when a person can sing a song without words, when the eyes of beloved looks like temple, the face looks like the statue of god, the voice of beloved looks like the voice of a ‘conch shell’, the sound of bell of beloved’s phone looks like the sound of bells of temple, the voice of a mosque for prayers looks like a shout of beloved friend. All the things only shows ‘purgatory (state of spiritual purification) there is no place for ‘vulgarity’ these all can be summarized in the words of a poet as follows:-
“kal wo alam tha ki khuda ko bhi nahi kehate the khuda,
Ab yeh alam hai ki unki har baat ko khuda kehate hein”
(Yesterday was the time I don’t believe in God,
But I see God in everywhere now)
Believe in these lines does not mean that I am an atheist, No I am hundred percent a ‘theist’ because the god is not separate from the true love, but GOD himself is the LOVE.
